Like you usually was

Like you usually do...
Made me a rain just when I feel like I can see the sunlight over the clouds

Like you usually was...
Always make me feel so little in your big, big assumptions

Like you usually do...
Make me feel like I can rival the Devil in terms of bad things

However, I'm no devil, nor an angel...
As a mere human being, I also feel pain, disappointment, hurt, lost of trust too

So like I usually do...
I wear an armor you called "skyscraper pride" to protect my heart

Like I usually was...
I'm the one who desperately clutching my heart while I take a step back to protect my soul from fear

Like I usually do...
I just accept whatever you accused me and keep my silence
Not to prove that I wrong, I just don't want you to feel this kind of pain

You've had enough pain dear one, it's a regret to know that I'm the one who caused it the most these past years
But sometimes you forget that I also got hurt too
Especially when you do it the way you know that would hurt me the most: by letting the whole world know how "despicable" and "prideful" I am

Then so be it...
It just means you can't really see through and accept who I am
Just like I can't seem to always please you with who I am
Familiar? Yes dear, unfortunately you're not the only one who feels like that...

Without we realize it, we become each other toxic
For now, "sorry" means nothing to us whether you realize it or not
It's not your fault as much as it's not mine
It's just simply how things are meant to happen
So for now, let the time heal us in our each own way

So, just like you do...
Before meeting me...
Please eat, sleep, and live well

You know, despite what happened I'm glad that we met
Thank you for everything
Even though our path end up differ, I'll treasure our memories together